@mandajapanda Amanda Lynn Lyons

💗DIY sex offender map enthusiast 💗1 of the 95% who would like to press criminal charges against her rapist 💗 Please consider my amnesia before contact

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2 weeks ago

My rapist and his friends and family should not be allowed anywhere near me. And they definitely should not be allowed to say anything that would devastate my recovery from severe abuse to anyone.

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2 weeks ago

I cried during the last sexual assault. They won’t see me cry again. Unless my hypothalamus needs an emotional cry. ...But that is a medical treatment for severe emotional abuse and gaslighting, so it does not count.

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3 weeks ago

When your rapist and his psychopathic friends enjoy stalking you with his car as one of their favorite past times, get a phone with a removable battery. #reorg4datingviolence

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Mar 2020

As a rape survivor, I do not really watch the news, television, movies, and failed criminal law because I could not read the cases. Although I try. I was shocked when I passed the FSOT. I did not expect to be alive for very much longer because of my rapist stalking me in his car. It finally escalated to car accidents in 2016, 10 after the stalking started, the first of which would have killed me if I went a second faster. I sit outside when classes discuss sex and marriage. I, honestly, am too busy with my panic attacks and PTSD memory loss for this bullshit.

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Mar 2020

You cannot make this stuff up. My life is like a real life horror story in a world where The Notebook is a love story and not emotionally abusive. Real men listen when you tell them “no” or “wait.”

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Mar 2020

When you know CNN has reached a new low: Like anyone in San Diego knows what a rape investigation is other than for the sole reason of destroying or covering it up. God knows my rapist put off his last semester of school to join the academy and conceal carry while he stalked me at my job and in his car to figure out how to really get away with his crime. You know, police brotherhood rape coverup style. It is networking on a whole other level. Yea, right, I do not feel like some psychopath’s trash.

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Mar 2020

The very people who should NOT be critiquing another person’s job performance. You should talk. How about focusing on what “penal code” for rape is instead? All the time you could be spending increasing your failing [of rape victims] job performance being spent doing something else. There is a reason they use the idiom “failing” when referring to rape victims. Some real bad news bears. I kinda want to see how far the coverup goes until the truth comes out. My PTSD is going away, so whatever.

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Mar 2020

This is reality.

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Mar 2020

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Mar 2020

When God gets you back for glossing over the genealogies in the Bible. Birthstone lace and two very sad looking little girls.

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Mar 2020

Horror movie inside joke. If I had $1 for every time I lied to a friend about having a crush on a guy to weed out the ones like my first untrustworthy friend who felt my love life was her love life too, I would have about $7.

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Mar 2020

The worst thing sweetie has ever done was use the “he said she said” abuse to use an office manager to hurt me while in the middle of a melanoma scare. It was benign. I was so emotionally upset I withdrew from law school and abandoned the job. My rapist started working at the perpetrator’s law enforcement former employer soon after. This is real police corruption surrounding rape. It was not the first intimidation, it will not be the last. It has become this sick game for them protecting a repeat sex offender with a gun and a badge he should not have while discrediting me as much as possible. Hi. I am here. I am not going away. I want justice and I want you to stop spreading discrediting rumors about me because you are a gaslighting rape culture practitioner.

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Mar 2020

One of the coolest adventures my mom and I went on recently was getting my glasses and contacts at an ‘80s era mall in Las Vegas. A few months later, I got a card saying they closed. Like a piece of history. The ‘80s were not just about the music, movies, and clothes.

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Mar 2020

I guess certain people decided 15 years ago I was not to make a recovery.

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Mar 2020

I was repeatedly sexually assaulted, intimidated, stalked and am yet to have justice. Not everyone is physically capable of this luxury.

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Mar 2020

Memory loss is the worst simply because a person dies, but is still alive. They are just a shell. Rape, stalking, trauma, feeling like someone is going to kill you, changes you. As you forget the unbearable pain, you forget who you are. It is not normal not to call loved ones. Or forget the newest of your favorites. To destroy someone’s mind is to destroy them. Rapists belong in prison. It makes everyone’s lives harder.

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Feb 2020

Before (favorite color )/After severe rape trauma syndrome triggered by my rapist stalking me. Not that I was not symptomatic before. It took repeated rapes beginning in high school and severe invasions of privacy and intimidation by him and his friends to get this bad. Until universities and the public start taking rape seriously, there will never be true justice for us.

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Feb 2020

Family 💗💗💗

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Jan 2020

My favorite President. I named my Rosy Barb after him because I felt “Madison” could be a girl or boy name, and a Rosy Barb looked very girly. This was before the Trans movement went mainstream.

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Jan 2020

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